Harmony

Happy songs fill the room,

Everything around you bask in the happy tune.

I can only watch from afar,

for my ears became deaf from my own despair.

The tree shadows me from the sun you’re in,

To feel warmth is enough to burn my skin.

Alas, you joined me in the shadow,

your heart sang in the tone I cannot comprehend.

I only see a smile until your lips start to move,

… it gave me the urge to sing along.

I tried, I really did.

But dark clouds rolled in,

your face started to look dim.

What happened, what’s wrong?

I am doing my best to sync with your heartbeat.

The voice my heart gave doesn’t seem to please you,

I guess I failed to notice my tune.

The more I try, the more you hate being in the dark.

I guess we were never meant to sync,

Rather, we were both meant to sink.

 

Looking Back

You know what’s hard?

It’s telling myself reasons to hate you

and finding loopholes to forgive right after.

Because,  at some point,

You made me happy.

You made me realize that loving someone is worth so much more than not doing so, 

That, to actually feel something is better than feeling nothing .. 

You gave me memories that are better to reminisce than to forget.

I loved you and we both could guarantee how much this is true.

However,  years have passed despite the time moving slow.

Now that I think back,  I can finally smile and say…

Thank you..

 

 

 

Numb

I sit alone and closed my eyes,
Focused on the light and ignored my cries.
Looked for the strength I need to borrow,
In order to bury the unending sorrow.

I imagined my love trapped in a cage,
Melted keys of locks, as if I’m a mage.
Adding spikes, shards and rusty blades,
Then smiled at the beautiful traps I made.

I’ve decided to cover it with light,
Then in a crystal to keep it during night.
Unsatisfied, I freeze it more.
Now it’s time to put it in the deepest core.

I sit alone and opened my eyes,
Feeling numb, but no more cries.
No more heartache for me to wallow,
I don’t mind some parts feeling hollow.

0903

Tonight, I’ll be typing about nonsense,

My mind is blank, I got nothing to share.

All of these are due to your absence,

Whatever, I do not really care.

I read my previous poems and I remember,

All sounded so dumb and gullible, I was so damn naive,

It still turns into a painful love letter,

When it comes to stories, you’re one of the thieves.

Again, this is all about nonsense,

there is nothing worth to share.

All of these are due to your absence,

Seriously, I do not care.

Your name is no longer carved in my chest,

My heart stopped beating on its own.

When it comes to climbing a mountain, I’ve reached the crest,

I imagined the ghost of you leaving me alone..

This is all about nonsense,

there is nothing left to share.

All of these are due to your absence,

Until now, I do not care.

From the moment my eyes connects with my thoughts,

Flashes of memories came into view.

Once again, my heart gets caught,

It starts aching, no thanks to you.

This is supposed to be nothing but nonsense,

I thought there is nothing worth to share.

All of these are due to your absence,

I need to get rid of the love I cannot bear.

” 0903″

Honestly…

As I read the letter I’ve read before,
I imagined waves coming back to shore.
My heart opened a secret door,
Inside I see the love which I thought no more.

I plan to go in, but my head says nay,
I hear myself shouting “I will stay”.
“I know the consequences that I will pay,
nothing can take this love away.”

Once again, I’ve hidden you all this time,
I fooled myself, I acted blind.
This precious love has always been kind,
A hypocrite you are, my own mind.

I’ve decided to write this out of the blue,
to the person, until now, I love so true.
To the one whom I’ll be completely honest to,
None still deserves it, other than you.